With Her new lover now

She is with Her new lover right now.

He came round at 10am with a bottle of Bucks Fizz. She's set the cushions up on the bench outside - not the armchairs - so that they would sit together.

The weather is lovely, so She's dressed in the sexy little outfit here - She sent me the picture before he arrived.

She's hoping he will be the first other man to fuck Her in our bed - where She said She hopes to suck his cock, and to tell him that She doesn't suck my cock...

He divorced his wife two years ago, and says he's not looking for love - so he could turn out to be the ideal boyfriend. Apparently he's good looking, and last time they were together he played with Her and made Her cum three times!

If he asks about me, She said She'd tell him I am Her submissive, and She calls all the shots in our loving female lead relationship.

I wonder what they are up to now!

We had this incredibly hot conversation - after She tells him I'm Her submissive, if He asks if She ever punishes me, She'll be honest and say no, but She used to. She hopes he will tell her that She should start to do so again, and perhaps even join Her in caning me to ensure I am punished hard enough. Ahhnnnng!

Domination

I do wish that Mistress would 'do' something of a sexual nature 'to' me that is purely and selfishly for Her pleasure, probably something I do not enjoy, but something she repeats from time to time, makes me request, and makes me thank Her afterwards.

That would be perfect.

I think the reason I wish for this is because I would know She is doing it purely for Her pleasure and because She can - not for my pleasure.

How are you all?

How is everyone?

We are fine. Been too busy to post!

Torremolinos is back from his Xmas break, so is due to give Her a ramming this Friday. Appart from that all is quiet.

Oh, in December She took me to visit Torremolinos. He opened Her arse right up, and then invited me to use it - he had made it wider than Her pussy! I used it happily and came in there for the fist time in years. It's rather confused our relationship!

Fight time

Sadly Mistress and I have had a fight. I got mad and She got mad and things got bad.

We’ve made up now, and I clearly symbolised this by offering to lick Her arse this morning, and She accepted it, by allowing me to lick Her arse.

Afterwards I sent Her this series of messages that I want to share with you.

10:10, 29 Nov - sub hubby: The reason I say I am happy for us to break up is not because I want us to break up, but is for the same reason I am submissive to you, and because I believe you are so good and sexy and desirable, such a complete woman, that it is difficult to see why you would settle for someone like me.

10:10, 29 Nov - sub hubby: The last thing I want to do is lose you. I want to serve you forever...

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: This is also why I get upset when I don't think you are being honest or happy. Because I want to respond to the honest you and fulfil the honest you, and I want to make you happy. I if I worry you are not being honest or happy then I worry I can't be making you happy, and that is the most important thing to me.

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: So its all upside down, I get cross because I am your submissive.

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: I hope you can see that.

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: And I will try not to get cross. X

10:18, 29 Nov - sub hubby: By the way, I am not making excuses for my bad behaviour. I am just letting you know why I say and feel those things. XXXX

10:27, 29 Nov - sub hubby: I do wish that you understood, and accepted and embraced this position in me, in order to fully exploit and enjoy the dominant role you deserve and should have in our relationship.

10:29, 29 Nov - sub hubby: You think cuckolding makes me angry, and but it's not that. It's more the fear and uncertainty caused by your reluctance to openly embrace a happy and entirely honest dominant role in our relationship.

10:32, 29 Nov - sub hubby: For example, when I ask you, and or in my mind want to fuck your arse after Torremolinos has loosened it, and you tell me that that is not my role, and that you love and want me to submissively lick it better, then I feel good because I believe you value that in me. XX

10:37, 29 Nov - Mistress Wife: Thanks for explaining. I understand better. I love you and I love you forever as my submissive. XX

It’s time… for anal sex

It’s that time of the month. Mistress is on Her period, and we don’t have conventional sex during that time. She sometimes gets a little PMT for a few days before hand, and this is never good – She gets PMT and upsets Herself and me, and then She goes off sexual limits for the best part of a week. That’s no good for a relationship is it?

Before the submissive relationship started, She’d nearly always give me a blowjob during this 5 day window, but all that stopped years ago – no chance of that happening now.

Sometimes She might wank me at this time, but this is less likely if She’s upset Herself and me in the past few days, as is the case this time around.

So the next few days are looking bleak sexually, for me anyway.

This makes it all the more interesting if Torremolinos reaches out for Her. Because of course for him, the absence of pussy is neither really here or there – because he’s just as happy raping Her arse and mouth – in fact, a closed pussy simply goes to justify using these other holes even more – so though She’s off sexual limits to me, She’s well on for him.

Even more interesting, is he usually reaches out on Friday, and today’s a Friday…

Because She upset both of us in the last few days, She suggested that She and I go to the pub for a drink this evening – I guess to kind of make up. We can’t do that if She’s out having anal sex with Torremolinos, so it’ll be interesting to see what happens if he reaches out.

Of course my cuckold hard on gets even harder at the thought of Her cancelling Her plans with me, to take Her arse to him, leaving me high and dry…

Sardax understands

I’m in a place I’m not really sure I want to be in.

If I ask for ‘normal’ sex (Mistress and I call it ‘Tatoo sex, because if I fuck Her doggy style [which I never do] then I get to see the tattoo in the small of Her back); so if I ask for Tatoo sex, then She says no – She does not suck wimp cocks and they don’t go in Her arse. “Those holes are reserved for real men who just take them”.

Well, after She’s told me no, I am hardly likely to ‘just take them’ am I. Torremolinos does, but that’s not me. I’d only want to do it if She wanted me to do it, and apparently She doesn’t.

My role, She says, is to lick Her arse gently, and have gentle, submissive sex with Her; a submissive role.

But this takes me to the standard cuckold submissive conflict.

If I am the submissive, then She must be the dominant, in which case Her role is to dominate me. She does not do this, in any way other than by requiring my acceptance of my cuckold, wimp status.

But my cuckold, wimp status wants more than that. It wants a dominant that does not just want to be served, but that wants to dominate. And that is apparently not Her.

This leaves me having to give, not get.

I appreciate that I give submission, and in return get love and acceptance. But my servitude feels wasted without some domination.

Sardax clearly understands. And in fact fuels my fire.

Submissive cuckold

I work from home on a PC. I use two large monitors, and enjoy a large number of porn desktop backgrounds of all sorts. I use a program called ‘Display Fusion’ to manage my desktop images, and it cycles through my huge porn collection across both desktop monitors.

Over the years I have amassed an enormous collection of only the finest looking women that now adorn my desktop. I also have a large collection of Mistress in sexy poses, taken by a professional photographer.

Years ago, before we started our FemDom relationship, I surfed porn a lot – often in front of Mistress, never hiding it from Her, and in fact sharing the best of my findings with Her. We used to buy and watch porn DVDs and videos together, and both shared a very open attitude to sex.

Now we never watch porn together. And when She’s at home, like today, I can’t bring myself to flash porn image across my screen (other than the pictures of Her which are all in very good taste).

Why? I feel it is disrespectful of Her to have big, crude images of naked women on my desktop. Why? I don’t know. I just do.

This has not stopped Her from enjoying porn with Her bulls. David in particular used to provide all sorts of really wild porn that they would watch together on DVD, and She would tell me about it in great details afterwards, sharing that She had really enjoyed it. So She enjoys it with him, why should I hide it? Because I find it disrespectful.

Mad. Submissive.

I’ve always had this ‘respectful’ attitude to women – that I now realise is actually a submissive attitude.

I treat women gently and with respect, where others dominate and fuck them like whores.

In university I enjoyed a three year relationship with the most beautiful girl on the campus. I would regularly sleep in Her room. She never even visited my room, let alone slept in it.

We would cuddle and sleep together and She never once let me fuck Her or even touch Her tits – but I was welcome to stay the night and sleep with Her for three years.

And she was no virgin. She had boyfriends, generally from outside the campus, that she would go and visit. Once I recall she took up with a guy from campus, and I saw them cuddling by the rugby pitch watching a match, her arm in his. Clearly having fucked the night before, and clearly going to fuck again that night.

I felt a pang of cuckold jealousy watching them by the pitch. I remember the day and image like it was yesterday. She saw me looking. Everyone else there assumed that I’d finished with Her after my long and lucky relationship with her. Little did they know.

I wondered at the time what she told her new beau about me. Had she told him that I’d never fucked her? All those years ago – I was about 22 at the time – I had never heard the words cuckold or submissive, but I obviously knew what they were.

I’ve since realised this is the submissive me.

Building on that fantasy, what I would love, more than anything else, would be for Her to enjoy a relationship with a dominant fucker that bangs Her and treats Her like a complete whore, but who also dominates me and encourages Her to do so. That would be nirvana.

Accepting my place

On Saturday morning as I tongued Mistresses arse, my tongue literally slipped right in, as far as I could push it, with no resistance whatsoever, because he had rammed his cock in it so hard that She was still wide open there the next morning.

I thought that with it so loose, my own cock could slip into that lovely warm hole with so little resistance that She would feel no discomfort, and so I said to Her ‘It’s so loose, I could slip my cock in gently, without hurting you at all. Please can I try and put it in your arse?’.

She said no. ‘Yours is a wimp cock, and does not deserve to go in my arse. That is only for real men, who ram it in without asking. You are my wimp submissive. Your job is to lick my arse it better after a real man has been fucking it. That’s what you do well, and that’s what I want from you’.

She could have been quoting ritemate’s comment!

Last night She was away at a friends house – they ran the Great South Run and then went out for a few drinks, going back to sleep at Her friends, so I was home alone after the kids went to bed, and started watching a porno to wank to.

She texted me and asked what I was doing so I told Her.

She replied that I should not watch porn, saying:

Be your submissive self, that’s what ‘s true and what I love. Everything else is bollocks. You are a cuckold sub. My cuckold sub, that I love. Just be that for me. That’s enough, and what I love”.

It seems difficult to believe that She will continue to give other men Her mouth and arse to fuck, but not give them to me, even when I ask so nicely and submissively.

Ellise Sutton maintains that regular disciple is necessary to remind the submissive of his place. Accompanies by punishment for those times he does not accept and fulfil his place.

I agree with Her. Mistress and I used to live that relationship, with regular discipline and punishment, but She chose to end it – I think She feels it unfair/wrong to cane me and cause me pain when She loves me. Of course the pain of not getting Her arse when other men do is far more severe – but She doesn’t seem to mind, in fact enjoys causing, that pain.

I’ve talked to Her about it before – and She agreed that punishment and discipline were useful and important tools – She was going to real Loving Female Authority again to remind Herself of it, but She hasn’t done so.

I maintain that if She now punished my for suggesting I be allowed into Her arse, and punished me for watching real men have sex in the porn DVD, forcing me to accept my place as Her submissive, then I would be a happier submissive.

I really want this, but its not my place to demand or require it of Her.

How much sex can a cuckold get?

So Friday morning we got to fuck. Then She fucks Torremolinos again last night…

So this morning I offer to eat Her arse (which is where he came last night). She lets me. Her arse is wide open from his fucking and my tongue slides all the way in. I get as hard as a rock and end up fucking Her pretty hard again – unusually hard – this morning.

We screw every day or every other day. Not bad for a cuckold. Because I’m a cuckold. Otherwise we’d probably screw considerably less.

Biting the bullet

Acting on ritemate’s advice I reflected on my humble status this morning as I cuddled Mistress in bed. I was just about to offer to engage e in oral sex (eat Her arse) when She told me to eat Her arse before going to make the tea. I told Her I was just about to offer, and sent my velvet tip down to pleasure her deeply.

I gave Her as much pleasure as I could, growing hard at the thought of his cock ramming in there. When She told me to go and make the tea, I said that I had hoped to ‘put it in Her’. She kindly agreed, and I spooned into Her in the only position in which we now fuck.

My cock was hard a s a rock as I wimped into the pussy he rams so hard, and I pushed deep, deep into Her before cumming and going down to make the tea.

As we later drank our tea in bed, She said She felt She aught to contact Torremolinos and ask if he’d like Her to go round – so that he didn’t feel that it was always him doing the asking.

I’d just cum in Her ten minutes earlier, and already She was thinking of a real fucking from him!

So She has texted him and they have arranged to meet, at 6pm this evening. She did not take her vibrator in to work with Her. She likes to have it with Her as he will not cum until after She does, so She has to use the vibrator to make Herself cum – otherwise he just keeps going…

So I drove down to Her office and dropped it off for Her to take to his place later today.

I did well!

The London excuse...

Mistress is not working in the office today. She’s going to London for a course. She was hoping to meet Dave, but he’s let Her down – She says She’s not bothered by that – She’s sick of him…. She’d ‘rather contact Torremolinos on Her way back’ anyway.

So what She wants to do is spend the day in London, then, when She gets back in the evening, instead of coming straight home, because She’s got an excuse to be out, She wants to use that excuse to go and open up Her arse to him again and get a thorough fucking.

She just hasn’t figured out quite how to break my heart and tell me yet…

Self defence: The cuckold hard on

Since Her last visit to Torremolinos I have felt myself to be in a sexual vacuum. The knowledge that She wants to pursue him sexually – that She wants his cock, rammed into Her for ages, probably more than She wants my cock, is disturbing.

I cannot fuck for 2 hours as he does, even if I try. And I’m not sure I want to! But he does. And She does. So I should. But I can’t. And my cock gets hard, ready to defend itself, by fucking Her in the best way I can. But I can’t win. Can’t outfuck him.

She looks so sexy. She is training to run a half marathon, so Her body is fitter than ever. Lovely legs and arse. My legs and arse. Lucky me. Except I don’t fuck that arse at all. Let alone as thoroughly as Torremolinos does.

My cuckold hard on is hard right now. I need to take it out and wank it while I think of Her wanting him. Think of him calling Her to him this week. Think of Her offering to go to him this week. She did say She might do that today, as She is out the office today. Cuckold hard on. Conflicts.

You can see how disturbed I was by it. My last post does not even have a heading. I’ve never done a blog post without a heading…

She came home from Her Friday evening visit to him in good time – to my surprise.

So much for me wondering whether or not She would go – She has planned it all along, taking Her vibrator in to work with Her so She would have it for Her visit to him later in the day.

This time She confessed to having loved the sex with him, when he, as usual, rammed all three holes for ages and whipped Her arse with his phone charger cable – now his weapon of choice.

Apparently at some stage He instructed Her when on all fours to hold Her arse open for him, which She did as he then rammed his cock into it. The thought is too painful – She opened it up for him, but won’t let me in it at all!

He came (eventually) in Her mouth, and then pulling out to cum on Her face and in Her eyes again.

When She came home She wanked me to orgasm while She told me about it all – despite my begging not to be made to cum, because I wanted to fuck Her like he had done, but She made me cum on the floor and then wipe it up myself.

I did fuck her on Sunday, submissively as usual, and then again this morning. I fucked as deep and as hard as I could, imaging his (bare-back) cock that She now admits to loving fucking in and out of Her. I was trying to fuck him out of Her system, but it never works – Her pussy can take more cock and so it does – I can’t finish it!

I don’t doubt he’ll be back for more this week….

Deep throat

It's not fair.

As expected he made contact, and after Pilates She will go round there for hours of fucking and deep throat sex.

She said that when She comes home She'll make me wank while She tells me all the horrible things he did to Her.

I said I would like to at least lick Her arse and pussy after he has fucked them, and She said licking Her arse was good, so hopefully I will at least get to do that.

Cum in Her face

Following on from ritemate’s comment in my last post (feedback is always welcome, hint hint!) I thought I better qualify that when Mistress was last with Torremolinos he didn’t actually cum in Her arse, but chose instead (after 2 hours of brutal fucking in Her arse, pussy and mouth) to cum all over Her face instead.

OIf course I have not cum on Her face since I don't know when!

Before He came he fucked Her throat so hard that She puked the glass of red wine She’d had earlier all over his carpet! And he literally fucked the shit out of Her arse too, so he had to clean both of those up – apparently he cleaned it all up rather than getting Her to. Quite shocking really.

Anyway, when She came home Her eyes were red from having had his cum in them.

The following Monday (Monday this week) he invited Her back, but She was too busy, but offered to go round there this evening instead.

Last night we had a huge fight over some diary mistakes I’d made for today, and She got quite upset. It will be interesting to see if She still goes off to see him after our fight. I suspect She won’t – She likes our house to be in order before She cuckolds me. But I hope She chooses to go anyway, because that would be far more dominant. As always She’ll contact me first to see what I think – but the minute She asks me I know She wants to go so I get a cuckold hard on and encourage Her. Terrible. We shall see. I’ll let you know.

Anal sex

Mistress has just arrived at Torremolinos' house. Last time She was there She was brutalised in all three holes for two hours before he finally came in Her arse.

To commisserate with Her I am sitting here with my but plug up my arse. It looks like the middle one in the picture and it hurts, as She would say, 'like buggery' when you put it in.

I'll see if I can keep it in for the full 2 hours She's having his cock shoved in Her...

More arse licking

This morning I was feeling loving, submissive and affectionate, so even though I knew there was not time for met to get sex, I offered to lick Mistress’ arse before I got out of bed. She let me.

I like Her to leave for work knowing that I am happy and honoured to lick Her arse in the morning.

It’s only a matter of time

Torremolinos has been away for just over two months now. Apart from Dave getting a couple of recent blow jobs, I’ve had Mistress to myself.

But it is just a matter of time – hours I suspect, before Torremolinos returns to work and sends Her a text. It will say ‘C. How are you? I am back. Was wondering if we might get together. When can you bring the cane? :)’.

She will tell me She doesn’t want to meet him, because the sex is too brutal, too painful, too selfish and goes on for too long, and then She will go and meet him at the next available opportunity.

He will fuck Her senseless, using all three holes hard. He will cane Her, and will probably give Her away to one, although I expect two, of his friends to use as well. And then he will send Her back to me.

For two weeks Her arse hole will be loose when I lick it – opened by his cock.

Why does that make my cock so hard? The thought of only licking the arse that he fucks.

Grrrr!

Kissing arse

This morning Mistress allowed me to eat Her arse in bed before getting up to make tea.

We’ve struggled a bit financially in the past 9 months, and this has a negative effect on the sex life. But we’ve talked about it and are working on being happy.

She told me yesterday that She is going to start to punish me if I don’t clear the table within 30 minutes of dinner being complete. She’s not punished me for nearly a year now, so I’m not sure what that’s about.

I offered to lick Her pussy or arse this morning as affirmation of my submission to and worship of Her. My tongue got deeper than ever before. I think it’s because Torremolinos has opened Her up with regular anal sex. He’s away on holiday through the summer, so She’s not seem him for a month or two.

She’s meeting Dave for lunch again today – not sure what that’s about, but She put on a short skirt and tight top to titillate the man. We shall see.

Meantime, there's quite a cool video here of some other guy worshiping his woman's arse.

And the winner is lust!

So much for Her deliberations. Lust won out and She is with him right now. “You can kiss it all better when I get back”, She said.

She went in a short dress and kinky brown boots. So I suggested She remove Her knickers so as to present him Her naked cunt. Men live that. So these are the knickers She left with me.

She didn’t take him the whip. I think She was scarred he would hurt Her. He probably will hurt Her anyway.

There are two things he has not done to Her that I figure he wants to do:-

1) Tie Her up and use Her, and

2) Have two cocks fuck Her – in the arse and the pussy at the same time.

I wonder if he’s done one (or both?) of those today.