Accepting my place

On Saturday morning as I tongued Mistresses arse, my tongue literally slipped right in, as far as I could push it, with no resistance whatsoever, because he had rammed his cock in it so hard that She was still wide open there the next morning.

I thought that with it so loose, my own cock could slip into that lovely warm hole with so little resistance that She would feel no discomfort, and so I said to Her ‘It’s so loose, I could slip my cock in gently, without hurting you at all. Please can I try and put it in your arse?’.

She said no. ‘Yours is a wimp cock, and does not deserve to go in my arse. That is only for real men, who ram it in without asking. You are my wimp submissive. Your job is to lick my arse it better after a real man has been fucking it. That’s what you do well, and that’s what I want from you’.

She could have been quoting ritemate’s comment!

Last night She was away at a friends house – they ran the Great South Run and then went out for a few drinks, going back to sleep at Her friends, so I was home alone after the kids went to bed, and started watching a porno to wank to.

She texted me and asked what I was doing so I told Her.

She replied that I should not watch porn, saying:

Be your submissive self, that’s what ‘s true and what I love. Everything else is bollocks. You are a cuckold sub. My cuckold sub, that I love. Just be that for me. That’s enough, and what I love”.

It seems difficult to believe that She will continue to give other men Her mouth and arse to fuck, but not give them to me, even when I ask so nicely and submissively.

Ellise Sutton maintains that regular disciple is necessary to remind the submissive of his place. Accompanies by punishment for those times he does not accept and fulfil his place.

I agree with Her. Mistress and I used to live that relationship, with regular discipline and punishment, but She chose to end it – I think She feels it unfair/wrong to cane me and cause me pain when She loves me. Of course the pain of not getting Her arse when other men do is far more severe – but She doesn’t seem to mind, in fact enjoys causing, that pain.

I’ve talked to Her about it before – and She agreed that punishment and discipline were useful and important tools – She was going to real Loving Female Authority again to remind Herself of it, but She hasn’t done so.

I maintain that if She now punished my for suggesting I be allowed into Her arse, and punished me for watching real men have sex in the porn DVD, forcing me to accept my place as Her submissive, then I would be a happier submissive.

I really want this, but its not my place to demand or require it of Her.