Friday, March 30, 2012
In the afternoon, lying in the sun She told me to eat Her pussy. I pulled off Her jeans and ate for some time. After She came She had me kneel up and fuck Her. As I did She asked me to tell Her something kinky, and I confessed that I had been thinking about how Torremolinos would cum over Her tits, face and hair, but I would not because She would not allow me.
She laughed and said its not that She would not allow me, its that I wouldn’t know how to. Obviously I came hugely as She said this.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
I would like Mistress to:-
1) Put Herself before me all the time every time. Only ever do what She wants without ever thinking about what I want – unless of course She chooses to think about what I want and put that first.
2) Dominate, humiliate and punish me. Go out of Her way to reinforce my submissive role in our relationship. Deprive me of things I like. Take joy in my pain and humiliation. See how low She can put me down. Mentally and physically.
On the day I first introduced FemDom to our relationship, I explained to Mistress that I would like Her to pee on me and make me drink Her piss, as a humiliating act. She burst out laughing and lead me to the bathroom where she had me lie on the tiled floor, crouched and filled my mouth with piss, laughing all the time.
I was ecstatic, and saw that as the beginning of a true FemDom relationship. But She’s never really built on it. And more recently has chosen to end the FemDom aspect of our relationship – She no longer gives me any orders, never punishes me. Never humiliates me – other than by Her cuckolding which She does because She loves the sex.
I read every page of Elise Sutton’s website before I even introduced Mistress to FemDom. As soon as She wrote her first book I immediately bought it - and there you have it; it was I that bought the book, not Her – She’s never really read it.
She read a bit of the book – enough to understand the difference between discipline and punishment. And She used to choose to inflict both upon me, for many years. But no more.
The only time She truly dominates me is when She cuckolds me, and allows the other man to use all three holes. Then She allows me to put my tongue in Her arse, but never my cock. That is real FemDom and I love it.
I appreciate that I submit to Her, so I respect all Her choices and I accept them. But if I had a choice, I would choose a more FemDom relationship.
Others understand me – the artist Sardax clearly understands me – look at the extreme’s he illustrates. And Elise Sutton understands me too. Blogger.com is riddled with submissive men like me that wish they were in a more FemDom relationship. Why?
I tell myself I am lucky to have my lovely Wife. And I am. I know it. But I wish She loved FemDom as much as me!
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
This morning Mistress went to work with quite a bit of cleavage showing. I got Her to let me take a picture before She left the house. This is Her gorgeous cleavage, which I suck gently, and Torremolinos cums all over…
(Click on the image to enlarge)
Monday, March 26, 2012
So they exchanged messages and he promised to get in touch when he gets back.
If She’d been able to find the time She’d have gone round there today and he’d have pounded all three holes as he does. Her arse would have been hanging loose for me next time I tongue it.
The thought got me so hard I had to wank myself off.
I wonder if I’ll ever get in Her arse or mouth again? I’m hard now thinking about it.
But then last night She wanted sex, so She asked me to go down on Her. And like a pussy, I went down and ate pussy. You’d have thought that because She’d done me wrong, She might make up by giving me a blow job, but no, it was I that went down on Her.
As always, I enjoyed it.
Before She came She told me to come up and fuck Her, and made me tell Her kinky thoughts while I fucked Her and She used Her pocket rocket to cum. Lovely.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Mistress went to work in this lovely back maxi dress today. The curve falling round Her arse cheeks was a delight to behold. I didn’t think my iPhone camera would do a good job of capturing it, but it’s not bad, is it?
Her arse, even if I do say so myself, is perfect. Small, round and pointy-outy. In this dress, with tiny thong knockers that do not show, She looks divine.
As I said to Her, I would have loved to lift Her dress and eat Her pussy. I’d have loved to fuck Her too – but I wanted to eat Her pussy. Others more manly would have just wanted to fuck Her. I guess that’s me! We’re happy though!
Not many of you have taken my poll. What do you think? Should She tell Dave that I know that he knows? Vote now. The poll is closing soon.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
When Mistress and Dave went out last week they discussed their relationship. He told Her that one of the reasons he didn’t see more of Her was because he didn’t want to Her to turn into a bunny boiler. They discussed this and She told him She was very happily married to me and was able to compartmentalise Her relationship with him, and would never turn into a bunny boiler.
Apparently he feels the same way about being happily married himself. They agreed they have feelings for each other and that their attraction was more than just sexual. They agreed to see more of each other, including more sex, on this basis…
Yesterday he texted Her when he had a hard on “…you should be here sucking this hard cock for me like a good little girl…” That’s obviously the kind of relationship they enjoy.
She’s just sent me the message above. This will be the first time they’ve met two weeks in a row. Note the love and kisses She sends me. She knows I’m insecure about Her relationship with him – of course I am. Hence the blank stare I included in my reply.
What will they talk about? Why? I know they’ll kiss. Once when they met in that hotel for coffee She gave him a blowjob in the lift and he came in Her mouth.
“Hello you. How’s it going? Xx”
“Dave is wanking. What are you up to?”
I replied, “xx. Nothing that pleasant… I always keep what I have for you :).”
“Good boy,” She said. “That’s the way I love it.”
The conversation ended.
I wondered at it – why did She text me just to tell me Dave was wanking? She doesn’t usually do that. I figured She was feeling a little guilty about it.
This morning in bed She reached across for my cock and wanked it a bit. AS She did, She explained the reasons why She never sucks my cock because She feels:-
• It is a dominant thing to do.
• When She used to do it, I didn’t like it.
• It makes me horny when She doesn’t suck my cock and She sucks someone else’s. And She likes it when I’m horny.
However, She said, I get ‘all depressed and funny about it’ and then She feels She should suck it for me – because She doesn’t want be depressed and funny.
I asked what She meant by ‘depressed and funny’, and She said like when I ask Her to suck it and try to push Her head down onto my cock – why do I do that?
I tried explaining it to Her. I want Her to do what She wants. If She doesn’t want to suck my cock, then don’t. If She does want to, then do. All I care is that She does only what She wants.
“But then why act funny?” She asked.
What do I feel?
I’d like one of two things:
1) A FemDom cuckold relationship, where She does not want to suck my cock because it is a submissive cock which She will not suck under any circumstances. Instead, She gets to suck the cocks of alpha males who are not submissive to Her. Or
2) A ‘normal’ (!) ‘open’ relationship where She sucks other cocks if She wants, but sucks mine too. When She wants to. If She ever wants to.
To me the key question is this: Does She or does She not want to suck my cock? If She wants to, then great. I cannot think of anyone I’d rather do that to me, and I will feel privileged to be sucked. But if She does not want to, then I want Her to state unequivocally that She does not want to and so will not. What I don’t like is the grey middle ground; ‘I’d be happy to suck your cock if you want me to, but I won’t suck it anyway.
If She WANTS to suck my cock, then She can just suck it. She WANTS to suck Dave’s cock and Torremolinos’ cock so She does. Does She want to suck mine or not?
It’s not an easy question.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
So after Mistress first met him, detailed in an earlier post, he got in touch and invited Her round again so She went one evening.
He took Her to the bedroom and gave Her a brutal one hour fucking, again using all three holes – Her mouth, pussy and arse. Eventually She told him She had to leave and so he finally came, wanking all over Her face, tits and hair. She had to shower before She could leave.
She tells me that real men don’t ask, they just take it. She says that if any man asks a lady ‘Please can I fuck your arse?’ the answer will always be a no. But of course I don’t want to force myself on Her, I want Her to agree, but She won’t. So I just get to tongue it and wish for it.
Torremolinos has not been in touch for nearly a week now. I asked if She was not planning to sext him and get more from him. She claimed She would not start it – he’s a selfish lover and She’s not going to chase him. She might go back if he invites Her, but She’s not going to ask.
My prediction? He will ask again soon. She’ll go back, and he will bang all three holes again.
The picture is of Mistress in Torremolinos marina. Actually taken on the same day as my main profile pic.
The other pic is of Her arse, presented. No wonder I want it!
Monday, March 19, 2012
They sank a good few glasses of wine, and played with each other in the pub. She undid Her bodysuit to give him access to her pussy, and She unzipped and played with him. They actually got thrown out of the pub, because they thought it was quiet enough in there for him to go down on Her, but they were seen and evicted, so had to move on to another pub (and carry on there!)
They stopped in a dark alley and had sex in there, and later She sucked him off in the back of the cab, and he came in Her mouth.
On the date they talked about their relationship – She told him She was tired of all the sex talk and wanted more direct action and fucking – which he never seems to come through on (no pun intended). He said this was because he was worried about the emotional aspects of getting close, but they both ended up agreeing that they want to get closer, are both happily married and not threatening their marriages, and would start fucking more… We shall see.
At one point he asked Her if I knew about them or suspected anything – She said no, I did not.
We’ve talked about this, and agreed it would be so hot for Her to tell him that I do know, and that I am a cuckold submissive.
We bump into him at our local pub from time to time, and I said to Her I would find it sooo humiliating to meeting him, with him knowing that I know…
Last night She told me to go down on Her and eat Her pussy. After a little while She told me to come up and put my dick in before going back down on Her again, which I gladly did.
As I put it in She asked me what I was thinking and I said I was thinking how unfair and dominant it was for Her to demand and expect oral sex of me, when She never goes down on me even though She knows I am desperate for Her to.
She agreed, but said She does not suck wimp cocks. She only sucks real men’s cocks. I groaned with agony and sexual excitement as I fucked into Her and listened to this.
“Is your cock a wimp cock or a real man’s cock?” She asked me.
“A wimp cock,” I replied.
“Does it deserve to be sucked?” She asked.
“It doesn’t,” I replied and groaned as I fucked my rock hard rod into Her.
“I love the fact that I suck Dave’s cock and I don’t suck yours,” She said. “That is so horny. I’d love to tell him that I don’t such yours. I am sure he’d love to know that.”
“Imagine if we bumped into him at the pub, and You called me over,” I said, “and asked me in front of him if You sucked my cock, and I had to say ‘no’.” It was too much and I came deep inside Her.
“Go back down and eat your own cum out of me, you wimp.” She said, and I gladly did. She does not get me to eat my cum out of Her enough.
I would love Her to tell him I know. I would love this knowledge to turn him on and make him want to humiliate me.
What do you think? Should She tell him? Take the poll today.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
As I licked at Her pussy and clit as attentive as I could, I thought of Her new Greek lover who fucks Her ruthlessly in Her arse and cunt, intermittently taking his cock out to ram it down Her thought. What a brute.
I contrasted his behaviour with mine, and licked as lovingly as I could. Then I decided on an idea and came up and mounted Mistress. She was shocked. "What are you doing?” She asked.
"I'm doing the opposite of your boyfriend," I replied. "He fucks your pussy and arse and then rams his cock in your mouth. I am going to eat your pussy, then put my cock in it, and then eat your pussy again. That way it's more submissive, more humiliating for me."
She was pretty wet down here while I did it, so the idea must have turned Her on.
I fucked Her missionary style for a little while (Unheard of sexual liberty. We always and only ever fuck with me spooning Her). Soon I returned to eating Her pussy while fingering Her cunt until She came.
As She came I slipped my sodden finger into Her arse. Her arse is normally so hot and tight, I have to ease my finger in gently. But he has loosened it so much with his savage fucking of it that my finger slipped straight in easily, reminding me how thoroughly he must have used it.
I commented to Her about it while I came up to spoon Her and cum in Her pussy in the usual manner of our live making. Wonderful bliss.
This morning I asked if I could eat Her arse before making tea. She allowed me and I went down to lick and penetrate Her arse with my tongue.
Her arse hole was loose on my tongue and I was able to fuck it into Her deeply. I figured 'what the hell. This arse is loose enough for me to fuck. He does it. Why shouldn't I' and so I rose over Her to put it in. She said no, and stopped me. So I didn't.
Later as we dressed She asked me if there was any KY jelly in our toy cupboard, next to me. I checked. There was not.
"I'll buy some today," She said. "You are so obsessed with my arse I have decided I am going to give it to you tonight. You can put on KY jelly and fuck me in the arse."
"I don't want it on that basis," I said. "I don't want it as a concession. I want it because you want me in there, same way you actually want him in there. And he doesn't use KY, so I don't want to. Why should I use lubricant and he doesn't? You either need lubricant or you don't. You can't not need it for him and yet need it for me."
Later I texted Her at work.
"So did you buy the KY jelly?"
"No." she replied. "Coz you said you wanted to do it like he did. I picked it up then put it back down again. Xx"
Needless to say I didn’t take Her arse last night.
Monday, March 12, 2012
They didn’t go home together that day, but she went round to see him mid day the following Monday. Then she sent me these texts, 12:53pm. (I’ve added the notes in brackets afterwards. All posts are from her unless prefaced with 'Me').
Hi sweets. Still in his flat. He is having a shower, I’ve had mine & I’m dressed.
Good lord he is a pervert!
I have NEVER been fucked so hard in the arse in my life!
He has such staying power, he puts DM (David from my earlier blogg posts) to shame!
He is a socks guy so he took care of it very well. He didn’t even ask so that’s obviously how he operates. He’s a safety guy!
We’ve had coffee (they went into the kitchen naked and made coffee and drank it naked together) and a bit of a chat so waiting for him to get dressed then we go!
In my car. Off to John Lewis. He wants to see me again. Not sure my arse can take it!
Definitely treated me like a slut!xx Xx
Me: Why a pertvert?
I got to his flat & started snogging. He touched then got to my pussy and was gutted about the Pi’s. Anyway moved on.
He got my top and bra off. Licked my tits, we took our clothes off.
He put condom on and fucked (He only fucked her in the arse).
In between took condom off. Made me deep throat his cock.
Did not allow my hands to control how far he thrust! (He held her hands to one side while he fucked her throat)
I thought he’d burst my throat!
When he was fucking my arse he again did not allow my hands anywhere near to control the deepness! (He held her hands to the side again).
He was brutal!
Xx I can hardly sit on my car seat it hurts so much!
He said next tme he wants to fuck my pussy hard like that!
He kept going for over an hour…went thru 5 condoms.
He finally came by withdrawing from my arse, pulled condom off and came all over my tits, face and hair!
Interesting to see if we hook up again xx
Driving now to John Lewis! Xx (13:18)
Me: I told you he would nail your mouth and arse…
I’m so so sore! Yeah you did. U know his type! Xx
Me: Now he’s loosened it I can have some! Xx
Me: I can start by kissing it better.
Me:Did he eat you?
Xx Yeah. It needs that!
No. He did not eat. Not sure he’s an eater. X
Me: Kiss it. Fix it. Ram it! Xx Hell no!!xx
--------------- She's been round to see him again once since - this time he fucked all three holes for an hour non stop. I've not been in her mouth or arse for longer than I can remember, and I only last 2 minutes when I fuck her.