Wednesday, September 26, 2007


Last night Mistress had me go down and eat Her arse. I am getting good at this, even if I do say so myself. I have learned to suck it into softness, and then gently but firmly push my tongue in deeply, giving Her great pleasure. Hmmm. I did this and did my best.

She loved it! When I was done and came back up. Mistress told me She loved it so much She was wetter than She’d ever been. She put my fingers to Her pussy to feel, and She was dripping! The only time I have ever felt Her than wet is when playing with another sexy girl. I was very pleased with myself.

As a reward Mistress let me penetrate Her, although not to orgasm of course.
In the morning Mistress was kind enough to let me suck and tongue Her arse again, twice before I had to get out of bed.

Life is good (for me if not for the poor monks) and I am lucky.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Kissing Ass

As always after a thorough caning, I cuddle Mistress even more gently as we go to bed, sleep and then wake in the morning, and today was no exception.

As I snuggled into Her naked body about 6.00 this morning, 30 minutes before the alarm goes, I said ‘Please feel free to tell me to lick Your arse or pussy if You would like to, Mistress’, and She grunted back at me.

5 minutes later She told me to go down and lick Her arse, telling me to make sure She stayed covered in the meantime. She pulled Her knees up to Her boobs, curving Her arse nicely for me to get stuck in, and I did.

I pulled Her gorgeous globes apart, licked and sucked, managing to penetrate Her further with my tongue than I have ever done before. I really probed, pushed licked, seeking out the most rewarding sensations I could for Her lovely hole.

After about 5 or 10 minutes, when it was clear She was not going to cum this morning, I lay back up with Her, asking if I could cuddle again, to which She agreed. I apologised for coming back up without instructions to stop, and told Mistress I felt guilty, asking if She wanted me to go back down, but She told me to stay up and cuddle Her which I did.

I thanked Her, and offered to go back down just before getting out of bed, to kiss Her arse again. Shortly, She told me to go back down and I did, again managing to thrust my tongue deep into Her arse and really licking it out. Eventually She told me to get up out of bed. She kindly permitted me a short wank while fondling Her breast. As soon as I got to the edge I stopped and got out of bed, licking the pre-cum off my fingers as I went down to make Her tea.

What a lovely start to the day. I can’t imagine a better one.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Merciful Mistress

I attempted to sneak out to the shops this afternoon, but Mistress declared Her intention to give me my strokes. I immediately and humbly begged for mercy, observing that all bar one set of strokes due was for cumming, asking to cum or asking Mistress to touch my cock, and pointing out that I had not done that since Her declared intention to punish me for doing so.

The only other set due was for asking permission to wank without saying ‘please’, ‘thank You’ and ‘Mistress’ in which regard I had learned my lesson and always spoke very politely now.

Mistress asked for and then considered the written list of punishments due that I had been maintaining (on Her instruction).

She told me to go upstairs and present myself, and then She would decide what to do.
Cock soft, I did just that.

A few minutes later Mistress stood by my side, the lighter cane in Her hand (I did not have the balls to give Her the heavier one…).

Picking issues on the list She proceeded to cane me more strokes than I can remember, swinging the cane right up to touch the roof before whacking it down onto my arse. Occasionally prompting me to confirm how I would behave in the future.

All in, I think She ‘forgave’ me of 5 strokes. But when She was done with the punishments due, She then gave me five more strokes ‘because She could’.

My cock remained soft (although it is hard now, I must confess, recalling events).

She left me laying on the bed for a while as She went about Her business, before returning to release my arm and a leg, allowing me to free myself, thanking Her profusely.

I really should have offered Her the bigger cane.

More than I deserve

Last night when we got into bed my cock was big and hard. As I cuddled up to Mistress I explained to Her that I had been reading a story in which the submissive male was given disciplinary strokes both morning, to remind him to behave, and evening, to remind him he was the submissive, as well as any punishment strokes he earned.

I explained to Her that the idea turned me on. Not that I wanted Her to cane me more, but I felt it would be a good influence on my behaviour to be caned morning and evening, or more often, rather than waiting sometimes for weeks, between canings.

Mistress replied that She would be coming home today (Monday) during the day, and would give me all that was due to me then.

I thanked Her, and asked if She would like to return to our old regime of daily whippings in the evening, but She said She would not. Again, I thanked Her.

This talk of caning turned Mistress on, and She told me to go down and eat Her pussy. She actually told me to eat Her pussy, making it clear She wanted me there rather then on Her arse, and I went down with pleasure.

I licked, sucked and licked and brought Her to a grinding orgasm with great pleasure. When She had cum and had enough She raised Her leg to allow me access to Her arse hole which I licked, sucked and penetrated with my tongue, before She ordered me up to sleep.

I asked Her permission to have a quick wank which She allowed, and She in fact reached over and wanked my cock Herself. Terrified that She would cane me in exchange for playing with my cock I quickly thanked Her for touching my cock, told Her how marvellous it felt, but begged Her not to as I did not deserve such privilege or pleasure, and was not worthy of Her hand.
She agreed that I was not, but carried on wanking me anyway, which was wonderful. I kept thanking Her, and reminding Her that I was not worthy of such pleasure.

I let Her know as I came close to orgasm, terrified that She would make me cum and then punish me for it, but She chose instead to stop for which I thanked Her before we went to sleep.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Punished for cumming

This morning I drove in with Mistress to school as I’ve not been yet this term, and Mistress wanted me to drop Her off at work afterwards, as She is going out with the girls for lunch and wanted to eb able to enjoy a glass of wine without worrying about driving. I will go and pick Her up later as well.

So on the way back passed our house Mistress indicates to turn in, and I remind Her that we are going to Her office. She straightens up and drives passed the house, saying that it had been Her intention to stop off and cane me, but She guesses she’ll do that later, maybe tonight after the kids go to bed, or more likely, on Saturday after they go to bed. So, She says, I’ll have to lie there in complete silence while She canes me. She smiles. I don’t, but my cock tingles with fear.

I am puzzled why Mistress wants to cane me. She has promised me about 55 strokes that I have not yet received. All bar 15 of them are for cumming – and only once without permission – all other times She either permitted it, or told me to cum!

55 strokes is a long and painful experience. Already I cried for permission not to cum on Thursday morning, because I knew Mistress would cane me for doing so – but She pushed me over the edge and then calmly said She’d only give me ten strokes for cumming! But it’s ten on top of an existing 45! I’ll die!

I know I don’t deserve to cum, and that I deserve to suffer grossly if or when I do cum in Her presence, let alone in Her, but what am I to do? There is nothing I can do. I will just have to offer up my arse and feel the pain. And remember it next time and try to ensure that I do not provoke Her into giving me too many orgasms.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

She chose Her arse again!

This morning I asked Mistress if She would like me to go down on Her before I got out of bed. My query drew an immediate response.

Would She like me to go down on Her arse, or Her pussy I asked. Another immediate response and seconds later I was licking Her arse.

I sucked, licked and pushed my tongue in, fingering Her as I did. This went on for a while, while She rubbed Her own clit and came to orgasm - the first time She has cum while I sucked Her arse. Wonderful.

After, Mistress made me penetrate Her and cum. I begged for mercy, saying I did not deserve to cum, but She said it was OK to do so, and She would only give me ten strokes for cumming. Sadly I came wildly deep into Her. I don't think She'll cane me for it, but there is no telling...

Tuesday, September 18, 2007


Saturday night in bed Mistress told me to go down and lick Her arse. This was the first time She has instructed me to pleasure Her in this way, and wow, did I feast!

I pushed my tongue deep into Her, sucked hard on Her arse, pulling it all into my mouth. She directed me to put a finger in Her pussy, and I licked and sucked at Her arse while fingering Her to orgasm. Another first. For Her to come as I lick Her arse.

My cock was rock hard as I ate Her, but She paid it no attention at all, and put us both to sleep once She had had Her pleasure.

It is two weeks tomorrow since I came accidentally over Mistress’ back. I wonder when She will permit me to cum again. I hope it is not anytime soon – I think it is so good for our relationship when She gets all the sexual pleasure.

Friday, September 14, 2007


I thanked Mistress for not punishing me earlier today. She said She thought about doing it and decided to put it off 'till Monday!

I said I thought She had forgiven me, but She said no, though She said She would monitor my submission over the weekend and see....

Yesterday I reminded Mistress of my suggestion that if She has any areas in which I could improve in any way, then She need only tell me. She said She would, but to date has not made any suggestions.....


Mistress came home at about 9 am.

We looked at some flight plans and a couple of other things and then She left for work without caning me.

It appears my submissive behaviour and attention to Her arse have earned me a reprieve of some sort.

TGI Friday? I don't think so!

Today is Friday. Traditionally this is the day of the week Mistress has chosen to deliver any punishment or discipline She has decided is due.
Mistress has just left to take the kids to school and will drive past the door on Her way to work in 30 minutes. What will She decide to do?

My cock was nice and hard in bed this morning, until I worked out it is Friday, when it became soft with fear. I cuddled Mistress gently and lovingly, and offered to go down and eat Her pussy and arse.

She kindly agreed and I lovingly licked and toyed with Her pussy, thought She chose not to cum – She said being left on the edge gave Her a better start for a horny day.

She raised Her leg and allowed me to tongue and lick Her lovely, ripe, delicate arse which I did for as long as She allowed. After I thanked Her for allowing me the privilege, told Her how I loved illustrating Her superiority over me by licking Her arse, and we cuddled again.

When She told me to get out of bed to make the tea I asked if She would like me to lick Her arse one more time and She agreed. I went down and sucked, licked and penetrated this haven before getting out of bed to make the tea.

I am hoping that my obvious submission to Her will be recognised and perhaps lead to some form of clemency. We shall see. If She does stop by then it is because She wants to influence me, and so I shall give Her the big cane.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Public shower

Today I was invited out for a game of golf at a course near me by my neighbour.
After the game we had to shower and change before lunch. The showers were open plan, so I had to stand facing my golfing buddy when naked, so as not to expose the stripes on my arse to him.

In the past this idea has turned Mistress on hugely – the thought of other guys seeing my stripes. It’s a good job She did not appreciate that I’d be in a public shower today, or She might have chosen to cut my arse earlier in the week.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

The Waiting Game

Monday was not convenient for Mistress to cane me. Either She was out, or when She wanted to cane me I was making money, and we’ve got to stay on top of that. So I experienced a brief reprieve.

Tuesday morning the cleaning lady comes between 9 and 9.15 in the morning, so Mistress never canes me on a Tuesday morning. So imaging my surprise when Mistress drove in at 08:55. Had She come to cane me? Phew, apparently not, she had come to pay the cleaning lady.

I am not enjoying the suspense, and was considering asking Mistress to please give me the strokes due as soon as possible so that I can overcome the wait. But obviously it is not my place to tell Her when I would like Her to do things, so I have not done this.

This morning there is no cleaning lady. Mistress has just now left for school, and at about 9am, in 30 minutes, will drive back past our front door on Her way to work. Will She stop and cane me or not?

I decided to take out the big cane and offer Mistress both. I don’t even know if She remembers our chat about the bigger cane – She does not obsess about these things the way I do, and its not Her arse that has to fear!

So I shall offer Her both, and if She asks why I shall say that we talked about the bigger cane, and about how the more the punishment hurt, the more I would fear it, the more effective the threat of it would be – making me a better slave.

Certainly now, already, I cannot contemplate asking Mistress to play with my cock. Great pleasure that might me, but I could not bear the idea of earning myself another ten strokes for that pleasure!

Monday, September 10, 2007

Good morning

Well it’s Monday morning and Mistress has left to take the kids to school. Mistress does not work Monday, so its gym and a few other things for Her through the day.

Though She is normally busy, this leaves plenty of time for Her to come home and can me if She chooses to, and I fear She will. We shall see. My cock is nearly rigid with fear at the thought, but the terror in me is keeping it soft.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Back to School

Last Friday night my mum was round here having dinner, when She offered to pick the kids up at mid-day Saturday to take them to the library.

My cock went limp at the prospect. It would be the first opportunity Mistress would have had for some time to get me in the house alone, and give me the 45 canes She has said She intends to give.

I had decided not to give Mistress the new, heavier cane. But then I thought that was wrong. I should give Mistress the bigger cane, and should welcome the greater pane it lays on my arse, and the more effective the message She chooses to send in training me with it. So I shall give Her the bigger cane.

I have been in fear of these strokes for some time. The kids went back to school on Thursday, so Friday morning Mistress could have come home and caned me, but I had a golf lesson so was out as well.

I have been trying to be extra submissive in the hope that Mistress might relent and forgive me. In particular, since Mistress let me lick Her arse I have been offering to lick Her every morning in bed, pushing my tongue right it and sucking Her arsehole, which She clearly enjoys. I figure that is about one of the most submissive things I can do for Her.

But at the same time, at times I have been a little argumentative and inattentive – I think because I have cum so much in recent days. I definitely could behave more submissive to Mistress. I only hope She does not ask if I think I have been a good submissive. I could not lie, and would probably attract more strokes as a result.

Saturday morning my cock did not even get hard I was so scared of what would happen later.
Imagine my delight when Mistress got stuck into some school letters and did not get the time to cane me while the kids were out! Great.

But this morning Mistress asked me what strokes She owed me. I described the 45 She had said She wanted to give. Later I asked why she was asking, and She said because the kids were in school on Monday, and She could and would stop by and give them to me then.

On Monday I shall be reminded that I do not deserve to cum, even with permission, that I do not deserve to have Mistress’ hand play with my cock, that I must say ‘please’, ‘thank you’ and ‘Mistress’ when talking to Her, and never to cum without permission.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Oh dear!

Last night as we got into bed Mistress pushed my hand down to play with Her which I gladly did. Shortly She told me to go down on Her and I slid down to do my thing, taking Her to orgasm a little faster than is usual for Her.

Once She was done She kindly allowed me a brief period of insertion, but as She later ordered me out the stimulation was too much and I came loud and copiously all over Mistress’ back as I snuggled into Her.

As I got a cloth to wipe Mistress clean She mumbled, half asleep, that I had cum without permission and would be punished with ten strokes.

I certainly had come this time, no mistaking it. I’ve never had such a noisy orgasm in my life! Don’t know what came over me.

But I am sure that any strokes Mistress gives me for cumming without permission are going to be hard ones to make sure the lesson is learned. So I’ve decided I won’t give Her the bigger cane unless She asks for it. I am up to 45 now after all!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007


This morning I got a little carried away with myself before I got out of bed, and little sperm spilled over me.

I quickly wiped it away with my hand and licked it off my fingers, and Mistress did not notice.

It was not a real orgasm, just a dribble, albeit a slightly substantial one, of what would have happened if I had carried on and had a proper wank.

My cock has been hard since, so I am happy that I did not actually cum, and Mistress is not going to feel any loss in my libido towards Her.

Perhaps She should not allow me, or I should not even, play with myself in the manner currently permitted?

Tuesday, September 04, 2007


I'm always loosing pieces of paper and so like to use this blog to keep a record of any punishment I am due.

Mistress has said that if I ever leave out any strokes She has awared me then I will get them 5 times over! So I don't want to be doing that.

Despite having behaved fairly well recently I have managed to accrue 35 strokes as follows:-

In exchange for Mistress touching my cock - 10.

For being allowed to cum - 10

For asking permission to touch my cock without saying 'please', 'Mistress' and 'Thank You' - 15.

I am continuing to behave as well as I can. I don't want to be earning more than this in any one session, especially with the new, heavier cane.

Who's a lucky boy, then?

This morning I was doubly lucky when Mistress permitted me to go down on Her in bed before waking up, and again, after licking Her lovely pussy, raised Her legs and allowed me to tongue Her arse.

This time, as I rubbed her fantastic globes with my hands, I managed to get my tongue in quite a bit deeper, and lick and suck Her for a while before She told me to go and make the tea. I thanked Her profusely for another great start to the day.

Monday, September 03, 2007

The best possible start to the day and to the week

I woke fairly early this morning, and lay cuddling Mistress with my hard on pushing into the softness of Her gorgeous arse, may hands, as always, cupping and kneading her soft, tender breasts.

After hitting the snooze button She lay back on Her back and allowed me to go down on Her, telling me to go under the covers rather than exposing Her to the morning chill, which I gladly did.

I rejoiced in Her pussy as I licked and tongued. The pleasure of giving Her the memory of a morning blow job is a privilege indeed. I licked and probed and I continued to stroke and play with Her breasts.

Mistress chose not to cum this morning, and instead raised Her leg and told me I could lick Her arse! What a rare privilege indeed! I delightfully put my tongue to Her rosebud and licked as hard as I could around it, before pushing my tongue in as deep as it would go.

I lowered my hands to cup and stroke Her gorgeous arse cheeks as I licked at Her little hole, managing to rim my tongue all around it.

I was absolutely thrilled to be having this opportunity, and delighted at how long Mistress lay back, leg raised, permitting me this pleasure. It went on for ages, not just a cursory lick. I was in heaven!

Eventually Mistress had had enough, lowered Her leg, and told me to go and make tea.
I thanked Her for Her kindness in allowing me the pleasure of Her arse, and for being such a kind Mistress, and begged Her permission for a short wank while looking down on Her naked body, which She kindly agreed to. My morning was complete!

Later, as we drank our tea, I asked Her if She had enjoyed having me tongue Her rear. Imagine my joy when She said She had. “Yeah!” She said, “I loved it!” What great news. Hopefully I will be allowed this joy more often.

I am struggling with the idea of what to buy or give my Mistress as a thank You present for being the best, kindest Mistress in the whole world. Any suggestions welcome. My lead idea is a 23 year old stud, and I’m still working on that, but wonder whether She would have the time to enjoy it anyway!

Sunday, September 02, 2007


It is interesting how dominant Mistress has become in front of the Kids. She has obviously decided that She is ‘outing’ our female lead relationship (‘FLR’) to them.

For my birthday this year She ordered off the web, and then gave me in front of them, a T shirt with the words ‘She is the BOSS’ emblazoned across the front. I wore it all day that day.
Apparently when She ordered the T shirt from Her computer in work, She had one of the secretaries take a look at the design to see if it looked OK. So She was obviously happy to out our FLR to her as well.

At any opportunity to do so She will tell the kids that She is in charge in our relationship without hesitation.

This morning as She lay in bed with them (they join us in bed for a drink of milk or juice that I bring them with our tea) I asked Mistress if She was ready for Her breakfast in bed, and if not, whether it was OK to come down and tinker on my computer. She replied that She was not ready for Her porridge yet. “You can go down now. Bring my porridge at 09:30!” She told me. No please. No request. An instruction, as the kids lay next to Her.

I am required to explicitly ask, using the word ‘please’, for permission to go and play golf if I ever want to play, and I have to do this in front of the kids quite often. “Sweetie (I don’t call Her Mistress unless we are in private) please can I go to play golf at 10:30 this morning?” I ask, in full hearing of anyone present.

I wonder how far this will go. It cannot go to far in my opinion. The more we reinforce to each other and those around us the stronger and better our FemDom relationship will be.

Last Night

Last night when we lay naked, me cuddling Mistress in bed, Mistress was kind enough to instruct that I go down on Her.

I started by sucking at Her lovely boobs, but She reached out to my head in frustration, placed Her hands on top of me and pushed me down to Her pussy where I applied the best of my ‘How To Eat Pussy’ knowledge.

Mistress delighted and was quite soon moaning and groaning – it is a few days since She last came. I experienced the usual rush that I feel as She shuddered to orgasm as I licked Her, gently sucking out all the juices that I could reach in and around Her warm pussy.

As She came down from Her high I moved my attention to Her arse and licked and probed at that, pushing my tongue as deep in as I could get it. My tongue couldn’t get very deep, but I did my best, relishing the submissive feeling that comes with this action.

Mistress did not allow me to tongue Her arse for long and said ‘Enough!’ folding Her legs up to close of my access. I climbed back up to lie with Her, my cock (Her cock really) large and throbbing.

I am not allowed to ask or offer to insert my cock into Mistress, but my cock was so hard last night that I decided to take the risk, and begged permission to insert it. Mistress kindly relented and allowed me to pump it into Her five times. She was warm and wet and I had no trouble penetrating Her. The five insertions came to pass very quickly. Mistress instructed me to pump a further ten times which worried me – this would take me close to orgasm I new. I did not want to cum for my pleasure, and I new that if I did I would be caned for doing so.
I stroked in and out carefully and the delight took me right up to the edge but I avoided cumming.

Mistress threw me out and instructed me to sleep, so I spooned in behind Her, my cock rubbing against Her arse, cupped Her breasts in my hands, and did my best to sleep, dry fucking Her as I did. Mistress allowed me in one or two more times before we finally did fall asleep.

This morning as I lay having my tea in bed I got to thinking. It is some time since I first offered my tongue as toilet paper for Mistress. She was originally excited at the idea, but has never taken me up on it, and indeed once instructed me not to talk about it as it was not a turn on for Her.

But if only I was allowed, in fact actually required, to lick Her arse and penetrate it with my tongue first thing every morning and last thing every night, no matter its state, as a clear symbol of Her superiority over me. What a joy that would be!

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Hand job

When Mistress has clothes that need a hand wash She puts them in this container under my sink in our bathroom. I check the container periodically (daily) and wash whatever is in there by hand. It is a real privilege to wash her dainty bras in this way.

If I do not check it regularly enough, and do the washing within 24 hours of Mistress placing it there for me, then I am eligible to be punished for it. In fact I have never actually attracted punishment for this as I do actually do the washing fairly often.

I am of course also responsible for doing the main laundry in the washing machine which I seem to do every day or two at the most – I did one wash last night and another first thing this morning. I hang the clothes out to dry, and am also responsible for putting them all away in the wardrobes and cupboards. I don’t actually do any ironing as we send clothes that need ironing out to be ironed and pay for that service.

I hate putting clothes away, especially the kids clothes as I don’t know whos is whos and can never work out where it all belongs, even though I have been doing it for so long.

Yesterday I noticed that while I was busy doing something else Mistress had put away two baskets of laundry for me. I thanked Her for doing that. I figured I better thank Her for it rather than pretend I didn’t notice and perhaps get punished for that.

Mistress said She had not yet decided whether or not to punish me for letting Her put the laundry away (I really should have done it a day earlier…) but so far so good. But this really is an area where I should improve.

Talking of which, Mistress has not yet identified any areas of improvement for me to target and I will have to wait and see what happens.