Fight time

Sadly Mistress and I have had a fight. I got mad and She got mad and things got bad.

We’ve made up now, and I clearly symbolised this by offering to lick Her arse this morning, and She accepted it, by allowing me to lick Her arse.

Afterwards I sent Her this series of messages that I want to share with you.

10:10, 29 Nov - sub hubby: The reason I say I am happy for us to break up is not because I want us to break up, but is for the same reason I am submissive to you, and because I believe you are so good and sexy and desirable, such a complete woman, that it is difficult to see why you would settle for someone like me.

10:10, 29 Nov - sub hubby: The last thing I want to do is lose you. I want to serve you forever...

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: This is also why I get upset when I don't think you are being honest or happy. Because I want to respond to the honest you and fulfil the honest you, and I want to make you happy. I if I worry you are not being honest or happy then I worry I can't be making you happy, and that is the most important thing to me.

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: So its all upside down, I get cross because I am your submissive.

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: I hope you can see that.

10:13, 29 Nov - sub hubby: And I will try not to get cross. X

10:18, 29 Nov - sub hubby: By the way, I am not making excuses for my bad behaviour. I am just letting you know why I say and feel those things. XXXX

10:27, 29 Nov - sub hubby: I do wish that you understood, and accepted and embraced this position in me, in order to fully exploit and enjoy the dominant role you deserve and should have in our relationship.

10:29, 29 Nov - sub hubby: You think cuckolding makes me angry, and but it's not that. It's more the fear and uncertainty caused by your reluctance to openly embrace a happy and entirely honest dominant role in our relationship.

10:32, 29 Nov - sub hubby: For example, when I ask you, and or in my mind want to fuck your arse after Torremolinos has loosened it, and you tell me that that is not my role, and that you love and want me to submissively lick it better, then I feel good because I believe you value that in me. XX

10:37, 29 Nov - Mistress Wife: Thanks for explaining. I understand better. I love you and I love you forever as my submissive. XX

It’s time… for anal sex

It’s that time of the month. Mistress is on Her period, and we don’t have conventional sex during that time. She sometimes gets a little PMT for a few days before hand, and this is never good – She gets PMT and upsets Herself and me, and then She goes off sexual limits for the best part of a week. That’s no good for a relationship is it?

Before the submissive relationship started, She’d nearly always give me a blowjob during this 5 day window, but all that stopped years ago – no chance of that happening now.

Sometimes She might wank me at this time, but this is less likely if She’s upset Herself and me in the past few days, as is the case this time around.

So the next few days are looking bleak sexually, for me anyway.

This makes it all the more interesting if Torremolinos reaches out for Her. Because of course for him, the absence of pussy is neither really here or there – because he’s just as happy raping Her arse and mouth – in fact, a closed pussy simply goes to justify using these other holes even more – so though She’s off sexual limits to me, She’s well on for him.

Even more interesting, is he usually reaches out on Friday, and today’s a Friday…

Because She upset both of us in the last few days, She suggested that She and I go to the pub for a drink this evening – I guess to kind of make up. We can’t do that if She’s out having anal sex with Torremolinos, so it’ll be interesting to see what happens if he reaches out.

Of course my cuckold hard on gets even harder at the thought of Her cancelling Her plans with me, to take Her arse to him, leaving me high and dry…

Sardax understands

I’m in a place I’m not really sure I want to be in.

If I ask for ‘normal’ sex (Mistress and I call it ‘Tatoo sex, because if I fuck Her doggy style [which I never do] then I get to see the tattoo in the small of Her back); so if I ask for Tatoo sex, then She says no – She does not suck wimp cocks and they don’t go in Her arse. “Those holes are reserved for real men who just take them”.

Well, after She’s told me no, I am hardly likely to ‘just take them’ am I. Torremolinos does, but that’s not me. I’d only want to do it if She wanted me to do it, and apparently She doesn’t.

My role, She says, is to lick Her arse gently, and have gentle, submissive sex with Her; a submissive role.

But this takes me to the standard cuckold submissive conflict.

If I am the submissive, then She must be the dominant, in which case Her role is to dominate me. She does not do this, in any way other than by requiring my acceptance of my cuckold, wimp status.

But my cuckold, wimp status wants more than that. It wants a dominant that does not just want to be served, but that wants to dominate. And that is apparently not Her.

This leaves me having to give, not get.

I appreciate that I give submission, and in return get love and acceptance. But my servitude feels wasted without some domination.

Sardax clearly understands. And in fact fuels my fire.

Submissive cuckold

I work from home on a PC. I use two large monitors, and enjoy a large number of porn desktop backgrounds of all sorts. I use a program called ‘Display Fusion’ to manage my desktop images, and it cycles through my huge porn collection across both desktop monitors.

Over the years I have amassed an enormous collection of only the finest looking women that now adorn my desktop. I also have a large collection of Mistress in sexy poses, taken by a professional photographer.

Years ago, before we started our FemDom relationship, I surfed porn a lot – often in front of Mistress, never hiding it from Her, and in fact sharing the best of my findings with Her. We used to buy and watch porn DVDs and videos together, and both shared a very open attitude to sex.

Now we never watch porn together. And when She’s at home, like today, I can’t bring myself to flash porn image across my screen (other than the pictures of Her which are all in very good taste).

Why? I feel it is disrespectful of Her to have big, crude images of naked women on my desktop. Why? I don’t know. I just do.

This has not stopped Her from enjoying porn with Her bulls. David in particular used to provide all sorts of really wild porn that they would watch together on DVD, and She would tell me about it in great details afterwards, sharing that She had really enjoyed it. So She enjoys it with him, why should I hide it? Because I find it disrespectful.

Mad. Submissive.

I’ve always had this ‘respectful’ attitude to women – that I now realise is actually a submissive attitude.

I treat women gently and with respect, where others dominate and fuck them like whores.

In university I enjoyed a three year relationship with the most beautiful girl on the campus. I would regularly sleep in Her room. She never even visited my room, let alone slept in it.

We would cuddle and sleep together and She never once let me fuck Her or even touch Her tits – but I was welcome to stay the night and sleep with Her for three years.

And she was no virgin. She had boyfriends, generally from outside the campus, that she would go and visit. Once I recall she took up with a guy from campus, and I saw them cuddling by the rugby pitch watching a match, her arm in his. Clearly having fucked the night before, and clearly going to fuck again that night.

I felt a pang of cuckold jealousy watching them by the pitch. I remember the day and image like it was yesterday. She saw me looking. Everyone else there assumed that I’d finished with Her after my long and lucky relationship with her. Little did they know.

I wondered at the time what she told her new beau about me. Had she told him that I’d never fucked her? All those years ago – I was about 22 at the time – I had never heard the words cuckold or submissive, but I obviously knew what they were.

I’ve since realised this is the submissive me.

Building on that fantasy, what I would love, more than anything else, would be for Her to enjoy a relationship with a dominant fucker that bangs Her and treats Her like a complete whore, but who also dominates me and encourages Her to do so. That would be nirvana.

Accepting my place

On Saturday morning as I tongued Mistresses arse, my tongue literally slipped right in, as far as I could push it, with no resistance whatsoever, because he had rammed his cock in it so hard that She was still wide open there the next morning.

I thought that with it so loose, my own cock could slip into that lovely warm hole with so little resistance that She would feel no discomfort, and so I said to Her ‘It’s so loose, I could slip my cock in gently, without hurting you at all. Please can I try and put it in your arse?’.

She said no. ‘Yours is a wimp cock, and does not deserve to go in my arse. That is only for real men, who ram it in without asking. You are my wimp submissive. Your job is to lick my arse it better after a real man has been fucking it. That’s what you do well, and that’s what I want from you’.

She could have been quoting ritemate’s comment!

Last night She was away at a friends house – they ran the Great South Run and then went out for a few drinks, going back to sleep at Her friends, so I was home alone after the kids went to bed, and started watching a porno to wank to.

She texted me and asked what I was doing so I told Her.

She replied that I should not watch porn, saying:

Be your submissive self, that’s what ‘s true and what I love. Everything else is bollocks. You are a cuckold sub. My cuckold sub, that I love. Just be that for me. That’s enough, and what I love”.

It seems difficult to believe that She will continue to give other men Her mouth and arse to fuck, but not give them to me, even when I ask so nicely and submissively.

Ellise Sutton maintains that regular disciple is necessary to remind the submissive of his place. Accompanies by punishment for those times he does not accept and fulfil his place.

I agree with Her. Mistress and I used to live that relationship, with regular discipline and punishment, but She chose to end it – I think She feels it unfair/wrong to cane me and cause me pain when She loves me. Of course the pain of not getting Her arse when other men do is far more severe – but She doesn’t seem to mind, in fact enjoys causing, that pain.

I’ve talked to Her about it before – and She agreed that punishment and discipline were useful and important tools – She was going to real Loving Female Authority again to remind Herself of it, but She hasn’t done so.

I maintain that if She now punished my for suggesting I be allowed into Her arse, and punished me for watching real men have sex in the porn DVD, forcing me to accept my place as Her submissive, then I would be a happier submissive.

I really want this, but its not my place to demand or require it of Her.

How much sex can a cuckold get?

So Friday morning we got to fuck. Then She fucks Torremolinos again last night…

So this morning I offer to eat Her arse (which is where he came last night). She lets me. Her arse is wide open from his fucking and my tongue slides all the way in. I get as hard as a rock and end up fucking Her pretty hard again – unusually hard – this morning.

We screw every day or every other day. Not bad for a cuckold. Because I’m a cuckold. Otherwise we’d probably screw considerably less.

Biting the bullet

Acting on ritemate’s advice I reflected on my humble status this morning as I cuddled Mistress in bed. I was just about to offer to engage e in oral sex (eat Her arse) when She told me to eat Her arse before going to make the tea. I told Her I was just about to offer, and sent my velvet tip down to pleasure her deeply.

I gave Her as much pleasure as I could, growing hard at the thought of his cock ramming in there. When She told me to go and make the tea, I said that I had hoped to ‘put it in Her’. She kindly agreed, and I spooned into Her in the only position in which we now fuck.

My cock was hard a s a rock as I wimped into the pussy he rams so hard, and I pushed deep, deep into Her before cumming and going down to make the tea.

As we later drank our tea in bed, She said She felt She aught to contact Torremolinos and ask if he’d like Her to go round – so that he didn’t feel that it was always him doing the asking.

I’d just cum in Her ten minutes earlier, and already She was thinking of a real fucking from him!

So She has texted him and they have arranged to meet, at 6pm this evening. She did not take her vibrator in to work with Her. She likes to have it with Her as he will not cum until after She does, so She has to use the vibrator to make Herself cum – otherwise he just keeps going…

So I drove down to Her office and dropped it off for Her to take to his place later today.

I did well!

The London excuse...

Mistress is not working in the office today. She’s going to London for a course. She was hoping to meet Dave, but he’s let Her down – She says She’s not bothered by that – She’s sick of him…. She’d ‘rather contact Torremolinos on Her way back’ anyway.

So what She wants to do is spend the day in London, then, when She gets back in the evening, instead of coming straight home, because She’s got an excuse to be out, She wants to use that excuse to go and open up Her arse to him again and get a thorough fucking.

She just hasn’t figured out quite how to break my heart and tell me yet…

Self defence: The cuckold hard on

Since Her last visit to Torremolinos I have felt myself to be in a sexual vacuum. The knowledge that She wants to pursue him sexually – that She wants his cock, rammed into Her for ages, probably more than She wants my cock, is disturbing.

I cannot fuck for 2 hours as he does, even if I try. And I’m not sure I want to! But he does. And She does. So I should. But I can’t. And my cock gets hard, ready to defend itself, by fucking Her in the best way I can. But I can’t win. Can’t outfuck him.

She looks so sexy. She is training to run a half marathon, so Her body is fitter than ever. Lovely legs and arse. My legs and arse. Lucky me. Except I don’t fuck that arse at all. Let alone as thoroughly as Torremolinos does.

My cuckold hard on is hard right now. I need to take it out and wank it while I think of Her wanting him. Think of him calling Her to him this week. Think of Her offering to go to him this week. She did say She might do that today, as She is out the office today. Cuckold hard on. Conflicts.

You can see how disturbed I was by it. My last post does not even have a heading. I’ve never done a blog post without a heading…

She came home from Her Friday evening visit to him in good time – to my surprise.

So much for me wondering whether or not She would go – She has planned it all along, taking Her vibrator in to work with Her so She would have it for Her visit to him later in the day.

This time She confessed to having loved the sex with him, when he, as usual, rammed all three holes for ages and whipped Her arse with his phone charger cable – now his weapon of choice.

Apparently at some stage He instructed Her when on all fours to hold Her arse open for him, which She did as he then rammed his cock into it. The thought is too painful – She opened it up for him, but won’t let me in it at all!

He came (eventually) in Her mouth, and then pulling out to cum on Her face and in Her eyes again.

When She came home She wanked me to orgasm while She told me about it all – despite my begging not to be made to cum, because I wanted to fuck Her like he had done, but She made me cum on the floor and then wipe it up myself.

I did fuck her on Sunday, submissively as usual, and then again this morning. I fucked as deep and as hard as I could, imaging his (bare-back) cock that She now admits to loving fucking in and out of Her. I was trying to fuck him out of Her system, but it never works – Her pussy can take more cock and so it does – I can’t finish it!

I don’t doubt he’ll be back for more this week….

Deep throat

It's not fair.

As expected he made contact, and after Pilates She will go round there for hours of fucking and deep throat sex.

She said that when She comes home She'll make me wank while She tells me all the horrible things he did to Her.

I said I would like to at least lick Her arse and pussy after he has fucked them, and She said licking Her arse was good, so hopefully I will at least get to do that.

Cum in Her face

Following on from ritemate’s comment in my last post (feedback is always welcome, hint hint!) I thought I better qualify that when Mistress was last with Torremolinos he didn’t actually cum in Her arse, but chose instead (after 2 hours of brutal fucking in Her arse, pussy and mouth) to cum all over Her face instead.

OIf course I have not cum on Her face since I don't know when!

Before He came he fucked Her throat so hard that She puked the glass of red wine She’d had earlier all over his carpet! And he literally fucked the shit out of Her arse too, so he had to clean both of those up – apparently he cleaned it all up rather than getting Her to. Quite shocking really.

Anyway, when She came home Her eyes were red from having had his cum in them.

The following Monday (Monday this week) he invited Her back, but She was too busy, but offered to go round there this evening instead.

Last night we had a huge fight over some diary mistakes I’d made for today, and She got quite upset. It will be interesting to see if She still goes off to see him after our fight. I suspect She won’t – She likes our house to be in order before She cuckolds me. But I hope She chooses to go anyway, because that would be far more dominant. As always She’ll contact me first to see what I think – but the minute She asks me I know She wants to go so I get a cuckold hard on and encourage Her. Terrible. We shall see. I’ll let you know.

Anal sex

Mistress has just arrived at Torremolinos' house. Last time She was there She was brutalised in all three holes for two hours before he finally came in Her arse.

To commisserate with Her I am sitting here with my but plug up my arse. It looks like the middle one in the picture and it hurts, as She would say, 'like buggery' when you put it in.

I'll see if I can keep it in for the full 2 hours She's having his cock shoved in Her...

More arse licking

This morning I was feeling loving, submissive and affectionate, so even though I knew there was not time for met to get sex, I offered to lick Mistress’ arse before I got out of bed. She let me.

I like Her to leave for work knowing that I am happy and honoured to lick Her arse in the morning.

It’s only a matter of time

Torremolinos has been away for just over two months now. Apart from Dave getting a couple of recent blow jobs, I’ve had Mistress to myself.

But it is just a matter of time – hours I suspect, before Torremolinos returns to work and sends Her a text. It will say ‘C. How are you? I am back. Was wondering if we might get together. When can you bring the cane? :)’.

She will tell me She doesn’t want to meet him, because the sex is too brutal, too painful, too selfish and goes on for too long, and then She will go and meet him at the next available opportunity.

He will fuck Her senseless, using all three holes hard. He will cane Her, and will probably give Her away to one, although I expect two, of his friends to use as well. And then he will send Her back to me.

For two weeks Her arse hole will be loose when I lick it – opened by his cock.

Why does that make my cock so hard? The thought of only licking the arse that he fucks.

Grrrr!

Kissing arse

This morning Mistress allowed me to eat Her arse in bed before getting up to make tea.

We’ve struggled a bit financially in the past 9 months, and this has a negative effect on the sex life. But we’ve talked about it and are working on being happy.

She told me yesterday that She is going to start to punish me if I don’t clear the table within 30 minutes of dinner being complete. She’s not punished me for nearly a year now, so I’m not sure what that’s about.

I offered to lick Her pussy or arse this morning as affirmation of my submission to and worship of Her. My tongue got deeper than ever before. I think it’s because Torremolinos has opened Her up with regular anal sex. He’s away on holiday through the summer, so She’s not seem him for a month or two.

She’s meeting Dave for lunch again today – not sure what that’s about, but She put on a short skirt and tight top to titillate the man. We shall see.

Meantime, there's quite a cool video here of some other guy worshiping his woman's arse.

And the winner is lust!

So much for Her deliberations. Lust won out and She is with him right now. “You can kiss it all better when I get back”, She said.

She went in a short dress and kinky brown boots. So I suggested She remove Her knickers so as to present him Her naked cunt. Men live that. So these are the knickers She left with me.

She didn’t take him the whip. I think She was scarred he would hurt Her. He probably will hurt Her anyway.

There are two things he has not done to Her that I figure he wants to do:-

1) Tie Her up and use Her, and

2) Have two cocks fuck Her – in the arse and the pussy at the same time.

I wonder if he’s done one (or both?) of those today.

Savagely fucked in all 3 holes

This morning I offered to lick Mistress’ arse before getting out of bed, and She allowed me.

Spreading Her cheeks I penetrated Her gently with my tongue, before licking all round Her arse lovingly. Tongue fucking it gently.

She felt relatively tight – I could feel my tongue penetrating Her. After She returns from a fucking from Torremolinos, Her arse is loose, and I cannot feel it around my tongue – I just have to lick it. So this morning I penetrated Her gently. She loves that.

Later I said to Her that Her arse had felt a little tighter that it usually was after She’d seen him, and She said that it also felt good. Relaxed and not in any pain.

Last time She visited him She complained that he fucked Her, hard, in Her arse and Her pussy for 1 hour 45 minutes not stop – it hurt! And he went on and on and on and on – all sorts of different positions and contortions – but She says She actually got bored. And he caned Her with a series of new sticks he’d cut for Her.

So this morning She said She’s not sure She wants to go and see him again. Oh yeah!

Now he’s just texted Her suggested they meet up again – he’ll be wanting to see Her tomorrow. She’s texting me about it saying She can’t decide what to do.

I’m not sure if She really can’t decide, or whether She is trying to let me down gently. I think She actually wants to go and see him, but doesn’t want to admit it to me.

We shall see. I’ll keep you posted…

Pounding, Kissing and licking

She is with him now. He will be pounding Her every orifice.

She told me that he hurts Her when he fucks Her, because he fucks Her so hard – in Her pussy, Her mouth or Her arse. Even Her pussy hurts and the strength of his thrusting. Yet She goes back…

When She gets in She will kiss me. She loves to kiss me when Her mouth is fresh from another cock – especially if he came in Her mouth.

I shall offer to lick Her pussy and Her arse – in case he came in there. He never licks Her pussy or Her arse.

If she let’s me I shall lick them tenderly.

Her submissive husband

At a recent date Torremolinos asked Mistress if I fucked around. She said ‘no’ and he asked Her how She knows.

He was naked at the time and She was playing with and sucking his cock. As she played, sucked and wanked him She told him I am Her submissive, and that I know where She is right now and what She is doing.

She told him that I only have sex with Her on Her terms, and that I don’t get Her arse, and She doesn’t suck my cock.

Apparently he became extra hard in Her hands as She told him this. Later he caned Her thoroughly so as to send Her back to me marked.

Next date he asked Her if I’d seen the marking, and She confirmed had, and had kissed Her there.

Mistress said She would like to get him round here so I can see how hard he fucks Her. We shall see.

Wooden spoon

Mistress has ended it with Dave. He kept promising fuck me dates and never came through. Torremolinos on the other hand has gone quite the other way…

For a recent date he purchased a wooden spoon from John Lewis, solely for the purpose of caning Her with it. He absolutely brutalised Her arse, and sent Her home black and blue.

http://www.johnlewis.com/231439727/Product.aspx

He lives with his 24 year old cousin and he gave Her to him! Marched Her into his room but naked and told Her to take his cock out and such it, and to fuck him. That day both he and his cousin had Her in all three holes.

He even left the room so his cousin could have his own way with Her. He explained to both of them how he had tested the spoon in John Lewis, to ensure it would have sufficient impact, and demonstrated to them how he’d tested it against the palm of his hand!

The next date She went back for, a week or so later, he had another friend there and he gave Her to him too! He too made use of all three holes!

Her arse has become so loose due to use, my tongue fits right up it.

None of them use lubricant with Her arse – he will not allow it - he literally refused Her to use it. The guys he gives Her to have to use condoms, he does not.

She has just gone round there now for a date. 1:30 pm on a Monday. He wanted Her in the flat with just themselves there, no cousin about.

My prediction is this: He has been shopping again and bought some bondage gear. He is going to tie Her up so She is completely helpless, and then brutalise Her. I may be wrong. We shall see.

Condoms

Mistress and Torremolinos have agreed that they don't fuck around and so don't need to use a condom any more. Last time she went there he fucked all three holes, her mouth, her pussy and her arse multiple times without a condom. He had cut a stick ready for her arrival, and caned her thoroughly with it. I kissed the stripes on her arse when she got in.

SEO for sex

How much do you know about SEO? Search Engine Optimisation? I’m no expert (and I can’t spell either!) but here’s a little insight into how I named my last blog article.

The most visited page of my blog is the blog article captioned ‘Anal Sex’. This page has been viewed 36,664 times. The next most visited page is ‘Strap on punishment’, viewed only 1,550 times. But compare these with the 10th most visited page that has only had 119 views.

What does this tell you? It tells me that you are a kinky bunch!

It also shows that the title you give an article, or the name you give the image associated with the article, will drive the amount of traffic you get.

So I decide to use a provocative title – ‘cumming in her mouth’. But I am not sure how to spell it. Is it ‘cumming in her mouth’ or ‘cuming in her mouth’? I don’t know. Anyway, which will attract the highest number of visitors to my blog? That’s what really matters – not how you should spell it, but how the world actually searches on it.

So I go to Google trends, and I ask Google to compare the two terms, and tell me how much traffic each attracts. I get this result.



That’s why I named the article the way I did.

So there you have it. SEO for the perverts!

Cumming in Her mouth

Mistress has a date with Dave today 3pm ‘till 5pm. As far I’m aware he’s not booked a hotel room. He never does. So they will probably go to a pub, have a glass of wine. Finger each other and snog, and then they’ll go outside and find somewhere where he can cum in Her mouth. That’s the normal routine.

So She got all dressed up this morning in a nice, short, sexy dress.  Just for him. She looked lovely.

Submissive sex

Tamara’s comments on my ‘FemDom conflict’ blog entry got me thinking. Plus I read this story on Literotica, about a guy who gets his wife to fuck someone else who she then falls for. Got me thinking too…

So over the last few days I’ve been talking to Mistress about whether She is happy with our sex life.

She says She is. The submissive sex is ‘perfect’. But. The but is that She feels a sense of overwhelming responsibility to initiate whatever sex we do have, and she wants to ensure I have an active sex life that I enjoy, and She doesn’t want that responsibility… She wants submissive sex with me, but not the responsibility. And She wants to know that I want Her and am attracted to Her.

Makes sense.

I thought about that.

So I said to Her that She should not feel a burden. None whatsoever. I want to be a welcome submissive, from which She only gains, without any downside. If I want sex with Her then I will initiate it in one of three submissive ways:-

1) By offering to lick Her pussy or arse.

2) By reaching out to play with Her pussy, or

3) By getting a hard on that She can feel pushing against Her.

All approaches are made on a submissive understanding that She is welcome to reject them. And if She wants to initiate sex with me then She can and should in any way She wants.

She was very happy with this and wants to work that way. So we will, and we’ll see how it goes.

I want to make Her feel wanted and precious, loved and sexy, by a man who cares for Her and respects Her above all else. I think She’s happy with that.

Eating pussy in the garden

Yesterday Mistress took the day of work and stayed at home. I was sexually tense all day, wanting to do something, but not wanting to impose my horniness on Her.

In the afternoon, lying in the sun She told me to eat Her pussy. I pulled off Her jeans and ate for some time. After She came She had me kneel up and fuck Her. As I did She asked me to tell Her something kinky, and I confessed that I had been thinking about how Torremolinos would cum over Her tits, face and hair, but I would not because She would not allow me. 

She laughed and said its not that She would not allow me, its that I wouldn’t know how to. Obviously I came hugely as She said this.

FemDom conflict

Since the outset, our FemDom relationship has never been as ‘deep’ as I would have liked it. And it has been pretty deep.

I would like Mistress to:-

1) Put Herself before me all the time every time. Only ever do what She wants without ever thinking about what I want – unless of course She chooses to think about what I want and put that first.

2) Dominate, humiliate and punish me. Go out of Her way to reinforce my submissive role in our relationship. Deprive me of things I like. Take joy in my pain and humiliation. See how low She can put me down. Mentally and physically.

On the day I first introduced FemDom to our relationship, I explained to Mistress that I would like Her to pee on me and make me drink Her piss, as a humiliating act. She burst out laughing and lead me to the bathroom where she had me lie on the tiled floor, crouched and filled my mouth with piss, laughing all the time.

I was ecstatic, and saw that as the beginning of a true FemDom relationship. But She’s never really built on it. And more recently has chosen to end the FemDom aspect of our relationship – She no longer gives me any orders, never punishes me. Never humiliates me – other than by Her cuckolding which She does because She loves the sex.

I read every page of Elise Sutton’s website before I even introduced Mistress to FemDom. As soon as She wrote her first book I immediately bought it - and there you have it; it was I that bought the book, not Her – She’s never really read it.

She read a bit of the book – enough to understand the difference between discipline and punishment. And She used to choose to inflict both upon me, for many years. But no more.

The only time She truly dominates me is when She cuckolds me, and allows the other man to use all three holes. Then She allows me to put my tongue in Her arse, but never my cock. That is real FemDom and I love it.

I appreciate that I submit to Her, so I respect all Her choices and I accept them. But if I had a choice, I would choose a more FemDom relationship.

Others understand me – the artist Sardax clearly understands me – look at the extreme’s he illustrates. And Elise Sutton understands me too. Blogger.com is riddled with submissive men like me that wish they were in a more FemDom relationship. Why?

I tell myself I am lucky to have my lovely Wife. And I am. I know it. But I wish She loved FemDom as much as me!

Cuckold cleavage

My cock is still tingling and limp today. When Torremolinos and Mistress were talking yesterday, the thought of Her going round there for brutal sex got me so hard it was like an iron bar. Even though I was in the house on my own, I groaned so loud when I came, I thought someone might hear me! My cock has not fully recovered since!

This morning Mistress went to work with quite a bit of cleavage showing. I got Her to let me take a picture before She left the house. This is Her gorgeous cleavage, which I suck gently, and Torremolinos cums all over…

(Click on the image to enlarge)

All three holes

Mistress texted me this morning. Torremolinos has just been in touch. He’s about to go to Greece for three weeks and wanted to fuck Her today before he left. Sadly She can’t make the time today, but of course She is delighted that he’s still interested – this woman was made to fuck!

So they exchanged messages and he promised to get in touch when he gets back.

If She’d been able to find the time She’d have gone round there today and he’d have pounded all three holes as he does. Her arse would have been hanging loose for me next time I tongue it.
The thought got me so hard I had to wank myself off.

I wonder if I’ll ever get in Her arse or mouth again? I’m hard now thinking about it.

Eating pussy

Last week Mistress upset me. Nothing too severe, but She just pissed me off a number of times in the same day and I got sick of it. So we’ve not been very intimate for a few days.

But then last night She wanted sex, so She asked me to go down on Her. And like a pussy, I went down and ate pussy. You’d have thought that because She’d done me wrong, She might make up by giving me a blow job, but no, it was I that went down on Her.

As always, I enjoyed it.

Before She came She told me to come up and fuck Her, and made me tell Her kinky thoughts while I fucked Her and She used Her pocket rocket to cum. Lovely.

Wank material

Mistress went to work in this lovely back maxi dress today.  The curve falling round Her arse cheeks was a delight to behold.  I didn’t think my iPhone camera would do a good job of capturing it, but it’s not bad, is it?

Her arse, even if I do say so myself, is perfect. Small, round and pointy-outy.  In this dress, with tiny thong knockers that do not show, She looks divine.

As I said to Her, I would have loved to lift Her dress and eat Her pussy.  I’d have loved to fuck Her too – but I wanted to eat Her pussy.  Others more manly would have just wanted to fuck Her.  I guess that’s me!  We’re happy though!

Not many of you have taken my poll.  What do you think? Should She tell Dave that I know that he knows?  Vote now. The poll is closing soon.

Emotional relationships

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Guilty?

At midday yesterday Mistress chatted to me briefly. We use WhatsApp to chat on our iPhones – it’s free to message, and works cross platform.


“Hello you. How’s it going? Xx”

“Dave is wanking. What are you up to?”

I replied, “xx. Nothing that pleasant… I always keep what I have for you :).”

“Good boy,” She said. “That’s the way I love it.”

The conversation ended.

I wondered at it – why did She text me just to tell me Dave was wanking? She doesn’t usually do that. I figured She was feeling a little guilty about it.
 

When She got in that evening I was presented with this box of chocolates. As fine a box as I have ever seen. I like chocolates, but I don’t usually get given a box this fine. Definitely feeling guilty, I figured.


This morning in bed She reached across for my cock and wanked it a bit. AS She did, She explained the reasons why She never sucks my cock because She feels:-

• It is a dominant thing to do.

• When She used to do it, I didn’t like it.

• It makes me horny when She doesn’t suck my cock and She sucks someone else’s. And She likes it when I’m horny.

However, She said, I get ‘all depressed and funny about it’ and then She feels She should suck it for me – because She doesn’t want be depressed and funny.

I asked what She meant by ‘depressed and funny’, and She said like when I ask Her to suck it and try to push Her head down onto my cock – why do I do that?

I tried explaining it to Her. I want Her to do what She wants. If She doesn’t want to suck my cock, then don’t. If She does want to, then do. All I care is that She does only what She wants.

“But then why act funny?” She asked.

What do I feel?

I’d like one of two things:

1) A FemDom cuckold relationship, where She does not want to suck my cock because it is a submissive cock which She will not suck under any circumstances. Instead, She gets to suck the cocks of alpha males who are not submissive to Her. Or

2) A ‘normal’ (!) ‘open’ relationship where She sucks other cocks if She wants, but sucks mine too. When She wants to. If She ever wants to.

To me the key question is this: Does She or does She not want to suck my cock? If She wants to, then great. I cannot think of anyone I’d rather do that to me, and I will feel privileged to be sucked. But if She does not want to, then I want Her to state unequivocally that She does not want to and so will not. What I don’t like is the grey middle ground; ‘I’d be happy to suck your cock if you want me to, but I won’t suck it anyway.

If She WANTS to suck my cock, then She can just suck it. She WANTS to suck Dave’s cock and Torremolinos’ cock so She does. Does She want to suck mine or not?

It’s not an easy question.

Terremolinos (and my obsession with anal sex)

Mistresses latest lover is a Greek. His name starts with a ‘T’, and is complicated, so we call him ‘Torremolinos’ after a place we enjoyed visiting. Torremolinos is actually on the Costa del Sol in Spain, but hey, that’s just a detail! We call the guy Torremolinos.


So after Mistress first met him, detailed in an earlier post, he got in touch and invited Her round again so She went one evening.

He took Her to the bedroom and gave Her a brutal one hour fucking, again using all three holes – Her mouth, pussy and arse. Eventually She told him She had to leave and so he finally came, wanking all over Her face, tits and hair. She had to shower before She could leave.

I have licked Her arse a few times since, and it has still not closed up properly. It is loose and my tongue can penetrate it deeply and easily. It feels just right to take my own cock, but when I ask for this She says no, and when I try to just take it She says no.

She tells me that real men don’t ask, they just take it. She says that if any man asks a lady ‘Please can I fuck your arse?’ the answer will always be a no. But of course I don’t want to force myself on Her, I want Her to agree, but She won’t. So I just get to tongue it and wish for it.

Torremolinos has not been in touch for nearly a week now. I asked if She was not planning to sext him and get more from him. She claimed She would not start it – he’s a selfish lover and She’s not going to chase him. She might go back if he invites Her, but She’s not going to ask.

My prediction? He will ask again soon. She’ll go back, and he will bang all three holes again.

The picture is of Mistress in Torremolinos marina. Actually taken on the same day as my main profile pic.

The other pic is of Her arse, presented. No wonder I want it!

Telling him I know

Mistress had another date with Dave last week, when they went up to London together to their favourite pub.

They sank a good few glasses of wine, and played with each other in the pub. She undid Her bodysuit to give him access to her pussy, and She unzipped and played with him. They actually got thrown out of the pub, because they thought it was quiet enough in there for him to go down on Her, but they were seen and evicted, so had to move on to another pub (and carry on there!)

They stopped in a dark alley and had sex in there, and later She sucked him off in the back of the cab, and he came in Her mouth.

On the date they talked about their relationship – She told him She was tired of all the sex talk and wanted more direct action and fucking – which he never seems to come through on (no pun intended). He said this was because he was worried about the emotional aspects of getting close, but they both ended up agreeing that they want to get closer, are both happily married and not threatening their marriages, and would start fucking more… We shall see.

At one point he asked Her if I knew about them or suspected anything – She said no, I did not.

We’ve talked about this, and agreed it would be so hot for Her to tell him that I do know, and that I am a cuckold submissive.

We bump into him at our local pub from time to time, and I said to Her I would find it sooo humiliating to meeting him, with him knowing that I know…

Last night She told me to go down on Her and eat Her pussy. After a little while She told me to come up and put my dick in before going back down on Her again, which I gladly did.

As I put it in She asked me what I was thinking and I said I was thinking how unfair and dominant it was for Her to demand and expect oral sex of me, when She never goes down on me even though She knows I am desperate for Her to.

She agreed, but said She does not suck wimp cocks. She only sucks real men’s cocks. I groaned with agony and sexual excitement as I fucked into Her and listened to this.

“Is your cock a wimp cock or a real man’s cock?” She asked me.

“A wimp cock,” I replied.

“Does it deserve to be sucked?” She asked.

“It doesn’t,” I replied and groaned as I fucked my rock hard rod into Her.

“I love the fact that I suck Dave’s cock and I don’t suck yours,” She said. “That is so horny. I’d love to tell him that I don’t such yours. I am sure he’d love to know that.”

“Imagine if we bumped into him at the pub, and You called me over,” I said, “and asked me in front of him if You sucked my cock, and I had to say ‘no’.” It was too much and I came deep inside Her.

“Go back down and eat your own cum out of me, you wimp.” She said, and I gladly did. She does not get me to eat my cum out of Her enough.

I would love Her to tell him I know. I would love this knowledge to turn him on and make him want to humiliate me.

What do you think? Should She tell him? Take the poll today.

Mobile blogging...

I've just downloaded the iPhone blogging App - to see how easy this makes it to blog on the go. It has no landscape mode, so it's not a very clever app...

Oral, Anal & KY Jelly

On Monday night Mistress told me to go down on Her in Her usual manner. I did so with pleasure.

As I licked at Her pussy and clit as attentive as I could, I thought of Her new Greek lover who fucks Her ruthlessly in Her arse and cunt, intermittently taking his cock out to ram it down Her thought. What a brute.

I contrasted his behaviour with mine, and licked as lovingly as I could. Then I decided on an idea and came up and mounted Mistress. She was shocked. "What are you doing?” She asked.

"I'm doing the opposite of your boyfriend," I replied. "He fucks your pussy and arse and then rams his cock in your mouth. I am going to eat your pussy, then put my cock in it, and then eat your pussy again. That way it's more submissive, more humiliating for me."

She was pretty wet down here while I did it, so the idea must have turned Her on.

I fucked Her missionary style for a little while (Unheard of sexual liberty. We always and only ever fuck with me spooning Her). Soon I returned to eating Her pussy while fingering Her cunt until She came.

As She came I slipped my sodden finger into Her arse. Her arse is normally so hot and tight, I have to ease my finger in gently. But he has loosened it so much with his savage fucking of it that my finger slipped straight in easily, reminding me how thoroughly he must have used it.

I commented to Her about it while I came up to spoon Her and cum in Her pussy in the usual manner of our live making. Wonderful bliss.

This morning I asked if I could eat Her arse before making tea. She allowed me and I went down to lick and penetrate Her arse with my tongue.

Her arse hole was loose on my tongue and I was able to fuck it into Her deeply. I figured 'what the hell. This arse is loose enough for me to fuck. He does it. Why shouldn't I' and so I rose over Her to put it in. She said no, and stopped me. So I didn't.

Later as we dressed She asked me if there was any KY jelly in our toy cupboard, next to me. I checked. There was not.

"I'll buy some today," She said. "You are so obsessed with my arse I have decided I am going to give it to you tonight. You can put on KY jelly and fuck me in the arse."

"I don't want it on that basis," I said. "I don't want it as a concession. I want it because you want me in there, same way you actually want him in there. And he doesn't use KY, so I don't want to. Why should I use lubricant and he doesn't? You either need lubricant or you don't. You can't not need it for him and yet need it for me."

Later I texted Her at work.

"So did you buy the KY jelly?"

"No." she replied. "Coz you said you wanted to do it like he did. I picked it up then put it back down again. Xx"

Needless to say I didn’t take Her arse last night.

New man in her arse...

She met a new man in a night club on Friday night. Very cute, she said. Greek. 33 years old – younger than her (that’s a first).

They didn’t go home together that day, but she went round to see him mid day the following Monday. Then she sent me these texts, 12:53pm. (I’ve added the notes in brackets afterwards. All posts are from her unless prefaced with 'Me').

Hi sweets. Still in his flat. He is having a shower, I’ve had mine & I’m dressed.

Good lord he is a pervert!

I have NEVER been fucked so hard in the arse in my life!

He has such staying power, he puts DM (David from my earlier blogg posts) to shame!

He is a socks guy so he took care of it very well. He didn’t even ask so that’s obviously how he operates. He’s a safety guy!

We’ve had coffee (they went into the kitchen naked and made coffee and drank it naked together) and a bit of a chat so waiting for him to get dressed then we go!

In my car. Off to John Lewis. He wants to see me again. Not sure my arse can take it!

Definitely treated me like a slut!xx Xx

Me: Why a pertvert?

I got to his flat & started snogging. He touched then got to my pussy and was gutted about the Pi’s. Anyway moved on.

He got my top and bra off. Licked my tits, we took our clothes off.

He put condom on and fucked (He only fucked her in the arse).

In between took condom off. Made me deep throat his cock.

Did not allow my hands to control how far he thrust! (He held her hands to one side while he fucked her throat)

I thought he’d burst my throat!

When he was fucking my arse he again did not allow my hands anywhere near to control the deepness! (He held her hands to the side again).

He was brutal!

Xx I can hardly sit on my car seat it hurts so much!

He said next tme he wants to fuck my pussy hard like that!

He kept going for over an hour…went thru 5 condoms.

He finally came by withdrawing from my arse, pulled condom off and came all over my tits, face and hair!

Interesting to see if we hook up again xx

Driving now to John Lewis! Xx (13:18)

Me: I told you he would nail your mouth and arse…

I’m so so sore! Yeah you did. U know his type! Xx

Me: Now he’s loosened it I can have some! Xx

Me: I can start by kissing it better.

Me:Did he eat you?

Xx Yeah. It needs that!

No. He did not eat. Not sure he’s an eater. X

Me: Kiss it. Fix it. Ram it! Xx Hell no!!xx

--------------- She's been round to see him again once since - this time he fucked all three holes for an hour non stop. I've not been in her mouth or arse for longer than I can remember, and I only last 2 minutes when I fuck her.